Sunday, May 8, 2011

Mother's Day 2011

For the past five years, Mother's Day has been a rather difficult day. I am pulled between hating mother's day to loving mother's day. When mom passed away five years ago 2 months before mother's day, I dreaded the upcoming holiday. I hated the idea of celebrating mother's day when I didn't have a mother to celebrate with and for. Justin reminded me of the fact that I still have mother to celebrate, she just won't be there in person to honor. "Every Mother has a Mother" he told me. For mother's day that year he gave me a beautiful picture frame filled with pictures of my mom and I together and that line. I loved it and cried the day I opened it. I wasn't expecting it at all. The next year, he created a beautiful video showing the life of my mother. It was such a beautiful tribute to my mother, that each year I repost it.

My mother was amazing. She was one of the greatest women I know. Through all she went through the last few years of her life and the fight she battled with cancer, mom never was discouraged. She taught me to be who I am today. One day I will be half the mother she was...I am still working on getting to that point. 

Missing my mom makes me hate mother's day. 

Looking into the eyes of my children makes me love it. Even with frustrations, tears and battles that we hold on a daily basis, and even some today, my children make me so happy to be a mother. I look at my children and hope that one day they have something nice to say about me. I love being a mom. It is by far my all time favorite job!  Sometimes I hate the things my kids do, sometimes they drive me absolutely crazy. Sometimes they make me cry. But more often than not, they fill my eyes with tears of joy, they make me laugh so hard I cry, they make me smile, and they make me cheer. 

But when mother's day rolls around, I always shed a few tears of sadness for my mom. Wishing that she could be here to call up and wish a happy mother's day. Since she can't, "If flowers grow in heaven Lord, then pick a bunch for me, place them in my Mum's arms and tell her they're from me. Tell her that I love and miss her, and when she turns to smile, place a kiss on her cheek and hold her for a while. ♥ ♥" That is a quote I copied from someone on Facebook. It was beautiful!  

And to the many other mother's in my life, My Grandma Shirley; My Aunts Tami, Georgine, Sandy, Debra; my sister Michelle; My mother-in-law, Maureen; My Sisters-in-law Cassie, Erika and Brie, to you and to all my other friends and family, I send a very happy mothers day. May you be honored by those in your life the way we all seem to be able to honor the ones we have lost. 

And to everyone, I say this: Treasure your mother. You may not realize it now, but one day she won't be around, and those days you will wish she matter the relationship you had, it is always hard when they are gone. Treasure them and their love for you. 

I love you mom!  

1 comment:

Mandi said...

That was such a beautiful tribute to your mom. I can't even imagine being without my mom. That would be so hard. My heart is with you today. I'm glad that you have your children to bring you happiness on this difficult day.