For the past month, I have had a portion of this blog post as a note in my phone. One night as I lay trying to sleep in bed, I couldn't get the thought out of my head. So in an attempt to quiet the thoughts, I pulled out my IPhone and typed a note...it ended up being a fairly long note. Since that day, Feb 5, I have toyed with the idea of posting it on my blog. Truth is, it is a combination of personal feelings and challenges that I would love others to take. In the end, today, I feel that for me not to post it, makes me feel in a way as if I am denying my testimony. Because of the many reassurances I have had recently, I do not feel like I can do that.
Before I post that portion though, I want to make a little preface. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, or Mormons as we are commonly called. I was raised my whole life in the church and never for even a minute doubted what I had been taught. I didn't always make the decisions that I should have to reflect it, but I never doubted the truthfulness of my religion. I never stepped up for myself and questioned it either. It was just always true. To this day, I still have not yet doubted, and I never will. However, I have taken the time, especially over the last 6 months to really explore my gospel and really gain a true conviction for what I believed. In the past 6 months, I have read through the Book of Mormon 2 times. Most recently I read it in the course of 2 months. Jan 6 to March 6. While reading the Book of Mormon, I also studied the Institute Manual that our church published. (you can read about that here). As a companion to that, I studied the Doctrines of the Gospel Manual, which goes into a little more depth on the different doctrines of the gospel. (Go Figure, i know). After both of those readings of the Book Of Mormon, I prayed. I asked my Father in Heaven to help me really know that the book is true. I didn't want to just believe it, I wanted to know it. So I asked and I was fortunate to find that answer come quickly in both cases. I know, without any doubt in my mind or heart, that the Book of Mormon is true, that Joseph Smith was a true prophet who saw God the Father and His Son Jesus Christ and through them brought forth the Book of Mormon and restored the Gospel. Knowing those things, makes everything else true.
So on now with my note from that night in February.